Wednesday, January 22, 2014

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Garovel placed himself between Hector and his mother. ‘You don’t have to say goodbye to her, you know.

Maybe the reaper was right. Hector certainly didn’t expect any warm words from the woman. If anything, he expected her to tell him that she was glad he was leaving, that she hoped she’d never see him again. But he felt ready for it this time, like he needed to hear it now in order to understand his mother’s feelings fully. She already knew he could die out there. She’d heard them discussing their plans earlier. Hector wanted to know what she would say to him now, when she understood that this could be the last chance she had to say anything to him at all.

So he ignored Garovel’s advice.

His mother just watched him approach from inside the open cabin over her car.

He supposed he would have to be the one to initiate the conversation. “Mom, I’m, ah... I’m...”

“You’re going,” she said.

“Yeah...”

“Risking your life for the good of the nation. I guess I should be proud.”

And again, Hector found himself not knowing what to say.

“What do you want from me then?” she asked. “You want me to wish you good luck?”

“I don’t want anything... I just wanted to say goodbye.”

“Well, you’ve said it.”

And that was all. That was the extent of what she had for him. He was almost disappointed. But he didn’t move away from her yet. He still had a question for her, something he didn’t think he would’ve been able to ask if he didn’t feel like it might be his last opportunity to.

“Mom...”

“What?”

“You... you don’t love me, do you?”

She stared at him a moment, blinking vacantly. “No. I don’t.”

He nodded. She’d basically said as much during their last conversation, but even so, after all this time, he was a bit grateful that she just came right out and said it. No more dancing around the issue. Finally, a definitive answer. “Was there ever a time when you did?”

That made her pause again, longer this time as she thought about it. “Not really, no.”

19 comments:

  1. For those wondering, the remaining four pages for today will be up at 2 pm, 4 pm, 6pm, and 8 pm. I could tell you why, BUT I'M NOT GONNA. BE CURIOUS AND DESPAIR.

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  2. That is so sad
    You bad man writer
    Not a bad writer
    Just a bad man
    I mean really. That is so sad

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  3. Snowtail the KhajiitJanuary 22, 2014 at 10:20 AM

    …Yup, there goes my happy.
    AGH. I reaaally hate her. If she dies, I shall rejoice.

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  4. Snowtail the KhajiitJanuary 22, 2014 at 10:20 AM

    *Despairs* BUT I'M CURIOUS!

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  5. What makes it worst is that this just makes her an excellent candidate to become a servant of a an Abolish reaper.

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  6. I think you might be on to something there Seiki ;)

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  7. I still can't tell if she's worse or gendo ikari... neither of them ever bothered showing love to their sons, but then again she didn't force him to fight this battle, but he needs to stop loving his son or else he might get sidetracked.... they are BOTH awful I guess. 'nuff said.

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  8. I'm calling Redemption Equals Death on Hector's mom. She's so unlikable now that her death would be welcomed by the audience, and Mr. Frost cannot possibly have a death in here that isn't a tearjerker. So she has to be at least partially redeemed before she dies.

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  9. I don't want her to die until Hector won't be devastated. She might be a bitch but he still (unfortunately) loves her.

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  10. I'd much prefer she not even be redeemed.

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  11. Closure. Desperate longing for something she'll never give him ends, and, hopefully, acceptance of it from people who will begins.

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  12. We do know, actually. Or rather, we know the truth, whatever he might have said. Remember Geoffrey knew everything about his victims. He said that his father was the same, and since Geoffrey's goal was to hurt Hector and he could hurt him just as bad telling him his father, who he'd just killed, loved him after all, I believe he wasn't lying.

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  13. That's kinda what this scene was about. Hector has finally started to emotionally cut her off. This whole confrontation was, for him, the final confirmation. He'd actually already begun. Now he'll finish the job, and Mrs. Edith seems ready to step in and be a mother figure to him. Heck, there's a whole family standing by now. Should be quite gratifying to watch it happen.

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  14. Mrs. Goffe behaves like a bad simulacrum of a human being. Like a victim of severe emotional neglect as she grew up.
    And sadly enough the same seemed to be the case for her husband. Which in a sense makes it really unlikely to have happened as it did. Two emotionally crippled people having found each other, completing each other, being emotional crutches for each other to become gain a semblance of a normal emotion shared among the both of them – enough to sustain, to little to nourish, hence the effective kaspar hausering of Hector.

    I have nothing left for her but pity.

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  15. Just shitty...I can't even fathom a mother ever meaning or saying something like that.

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  16. Well at least he knows....

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  17. Aw, shit
    I TOTALLY AGREE
    Hector gon be in quite the crisis for that fight.

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  18. Hector's mom is really quite dies likable, isn't she? I wonder what his father's answer to the same question would've been, had Hector ever asked?

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